The Empty Place

It's probably too soon to write about this but just like the loss of a human friend it will take time to adjust to the changes and the feelings.

Take for example eating. Hairy loves the gravy but only picks at the meat pieces. This was no problem before as Blackie was always on a "see food" diet. All the food he saw is all he wanted. LOL

If Blackie wouldn't eat something from my plate then I stopped buying it for myself. There HAD to be something wrong with it. (grin)

And now I really don't know what to do with those leftovers from both my plate and the kitty dish.

I'm sure somewhere there is another kitty who needs a loving home who may have similar qualities but I am old enough to realize that this is no time to look. It's time to grieve properly. And having had my share of pets over the years come and go I know the hurt will ease.

I guess it's a little worse now thanks to all the technology available today in the form of cheap and plentiful pictures, not to mention some security cam footage of Blackie just being good old Blackie. I probably need to store those away for a little while because I keep second guessing myself thinking I could have done something differently that night and he would still be with me today. I hope he knows he was loved, wherever little pet friends go.

I know from the recording he went over to take a drink of water, looked at my front door, then pranced up by the street. This was not so unusual for him, as I have shared in the past. But then for no reason he went to the exact center of the street to lay down, seemingly knowing his fate. Cars went past him but he didn't budge. So I suppose he felt it was just his time to go. I just wish I could have hugged him one last time. I think that is the most sad part.

So just remember when you part company with someone or some pet friend, even as a routine part of your day, keep in mind that we are not promised tomorrow so keep short accounts in the mad department and never part without an "I love you honey" even when you're at odds over some trivial thing.